I love everybody. Sorry for not being perfect. My life can only be what I make of it and lately I can’t seem to do anything but screw it up.
Once again I love you and my heart continues to be haunted for that. I tried to make it right but my eyes ran out of tears. Funny cause now I write with so much emotion that I can hardly see past these tears in my eyes. That being said, the consequences of bad decisions will make the past haunt me. …that’s a life time of memory… assuming I live that long.
Truthfully, I just started writing to get away, at least I think so …or even find company for my misery, but either way its my pleasure. I have lived my whole life in disappointments, its a miracle I’m still capable of things like trust and love so I hope you didn’t miss out on the part where I jerked out on all that cause I would be disappointed, am overly prepared for that. That’s my whole purpose in fact.
Well it so happened that I couldn’t accept the impossibility of such a feeling, simply because it was more common to me than I like to admit. Nigga had zero love, at least I thought so. I can’t quite remember what we are now so lets recap, you said some thing about destiny… not that I was listening so lets agree to dis-agree. Relationships are funny, they only end once, anything that happens before that is just progress so I’m hoping that’s what we are now, progressing. My emotions are gone, take whatever you like, that heart too… it’s just a heart to me now, and the fact that my concience is clear doesn’t mean it should be, it simply means that I don’t have one.